so tell me, how does it feel

blaaa!!!!!!!! lol, well this morning i woke up, and every thing went well i got dough nuts and coffe at dounkin doughnuts....than my coffe spilled in my car and when i went to pick it up like an idiot i ramed into a dodge ram and got stuck underit doing a great deal of damage to my car, luckily there was no dammage vissable to the engine, so thats good, yeaa that sucked.
BUT!!!
im looking for like a body of the same car so i can just get parts from that and put it on my car, and looking is making me feel better, so did the three doughnuts i ate, along with the most delicious tag a long girl scout cookies from my love.

its just material things right?

even though she was my baby (it was my car) and i loved her(it) the way she (it)was ill fix her....i mean it ill fix it.

i was real upset but now things are better. and if i seemed crabby or in a bitter mood towards anyone im sorry.

i had a fantastic weekend, an excellent monday, and tuesday is not going to ruin it ;o)

this past sunday was my mommas b-day, and at 3 in the morning i was picking her up from seaside because she was a little tipsy, but thats cool it was her birthday ya know? oh yea and i hit a skunk in her car on the way home, it was smelly.

i went to the board walk on saturday with amanda than to best buy, after racing jb and getting scared to death cuz i didnt know it was him and he fallowed me in to the parking spot next to mine lol, and received the most awesomist gift ever (so good i made up a word just there <- )the sound track to the amazing mulian rouge and haven't stopped listening to it yet. than i had a loving bowl of soup with amanda. and that was basically my weekend.

life is good.

sweet





isabella is mean





ummmm lifes fucken peachy!




woo!!!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"I may look like an Ewok, but I'm all Wookie where it counts, baby."

Your Summer Anthem is Best Of You by the Foo Fighters I've got another confession my friend I'm no fool I'm getting tired of starting again Somewhere new While you may seem bright on the outside, your insides have a distinct angst flavor.

odd one of my favorite bands and an amazing song i think this is excellent i love it yessss, weird picture though idk lol...oh yea im in a survey mood cuz im bored, im searching or these...who does that whats wrong with me lol...oh yea jut typed all that with one finger...damn can do an explanation point....wait..111..nope oh well hah


and thisll be it i guess gotta sleep some hah

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

im leaving Andys when i wake up tomorrow :( it was alot of fun though, i have no clue how im getting to work tomarrow, its at one... crap, o well i just did one of those birthday things and idk if it was very true at all but idk whatev ...here it is... i still dont think its me...

Your Birthdate: December 28

Your birth on the 28th day of the month (1 energy) adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your Life Path. The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated. A birthday on the 28th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. Unlike much of the other 1 energy, this birthday is one that endow with the ability to start a job and continue on until it is finished. You may prefer to use the broad brush, but you can handle details as well. You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed. You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

well idk im a little tired and don't feel like typing any more so ill listen to music until i do fall asleep good nite all sleep tight

so im going to start writing in this again i miss writing stuff and have found myself bored with nothing really to do so yea woo hoo! heh

so yea i work at path mark and all rite, idk if this is mean or horrible but this um...ehem.. very large lady came in my line enraged that we "stopped caring kudos" and the whole time all i thought was well ya dont really need them, and also the twinkie isle is still around, theres nothing to worry about heh yea than i found out that we didnt stop selling them we were out and the kid at the courtesy desk lied...cuz she was fat lol

so yea listining to iron maiden, havent done that in a while, chillen at andys, i haven't talked to my parents at all since they got to Niagara, i guess there good, i might call them later. and that was today, i talked to alyssa on my break for a bit too, shes good, almost died on Cadillac mountain but hey shes good. and i just realized that each little paragraphs started with so...oh well

not any more

i suck....a lot

yea so basically today i was in a real shitty mood, probably because i got sick last night, which was AWESOME,because i love throwing up...gay...this morning i felt like A) going home & never coming back or B) get into a fight, i didnt do  either i just listened to music. how does it take over so easily, i live music if there wasnt music i would die...and im not joking...#1 love right there, but what do i know about love right?....

 ANY WAY...

i went out side for lunch today, because it was fucking gorgeous out, I love it....and that was actually the high ligh of my day...its good though because i went out in gym too....it was so0o0o0oo nice i talked to britney in gum....ha ha i spellt gum...in gYm...about the people in out "liking situation" if thats how you put it haha... i kinda got sick in bio...HAHAHA i just turned around and saw joe lindenbam  and though of the time (when i heard about it) when his highlighter popped in his pants and he looked across the lunch room shouting "it exploded in my pants!" HAHAHA...any way ok im done now...hasta la vista ...babby (i dont take spanish so if you say its spelt wrong fuck you)

Hello there so i havnet up dated scince thursday?!?!?!?!(awesome band too) heh s0o0o ill go through the list... thursday night i slept over daves, we watched surviving christmas which was extremely funny in mt opinion... AND... we alfo watched the Directors cut of Donnie darko and id have to say it was quite amazing, the movie was the same and all of course, but the little things they added were awesome...and that # one fan guy...he was fuken wierd...so any way the list...

Friday: hummm...went driving in daves back yard, derssed up like mother Teresa, had a photoshoot with christene, watched porno oner miked with every one?!?!...wha!!went home and dreamed the night away...

Saturday: went to the board walk recived HERCULES!!!! my chinese fighting fish  i went with alyssa mike alex isabella & dana...went over mikes, jammed out for a bit, watched animal house, such a good movie..oh yea got a new cologne, cool water...went home got betta food, for HURK!!...and a new bowl and fish stuff,...and than went to bed

Sunday: went to tom &barbras for breakfast, went to church, went home to find my grad parents changed their mind? and did not want to have lunch with us? whatev...than went back to tom& barbras for dinner, jammed with anthony, went on line for a bit, went home to notice that i forgot ALL my cds  over there...shit.

Monday: stayed home , Isabella &Mike P. came over  we played, i sang a bit, AND IT WAS RAINING!!!!!!!!! i love it. than i re-lived my child hood & watched the lion king , A goofy movie, and than i got mad cuz i couldnt find my Aladin....I LOST IT!!!!  I LOVE THAT MOVIE THOUGH!!!  i so want the sound track to a goofy movie i love power line any hoo i got my cds back, and yea....that day was saddened, when i was playing guitar with mike i turned around to see hurk dead............moment of silence...........So i had a service in the bath room, and we said out peace and flushed him to the sea.... :-(....

And that brings us to today today was fun, and thats all i got for today...and i really dont feel like typeing...yea im lasy, but at least i had an ok day peace & love, im out ...heh that sounded hippyish...o well bye bye blue eyes!

Whats up, so today it rained alot... i liked it, most people hate the rain, i love it so much something about getting soaked is soooo fun to me. 

I slow danced with val and isabella in the hall way to frankie <333 <== yes he deserves 3 hearts... plus it was fun, isabella was like NO..and i was like yes, than she called me weird...at least val danced with me.

 Today eric gave a sex book to carrie...i read it... it was pritty sweet...o there was pictures too, but they werent that good, im  jealous i want a book like that!!

Today in bio there was a big worksheet that me jon mike ryan neal &worked on, we got it done cuz were pro. im pretty pissed at dan for not showing up though he said he didnt come because Amanda wasn't there, and he didnt want to talk to me, so i guess hes too cool for me so he skipped. britney wasnt herself today but she said she was ok, she wasnt really talking, and i tried to get her to, but it didnt really work, even though she did she still seemed like she was in a bad mood...i tried but i think its because her shoulder hurt her.

After school i went and hung out with kristen, val, and eric & carrie and red more of the amazing book, i like that book...heh

Now im at the library until 4 because people are looking at my house, i hope they like it, so yea today was good, i had a really fun day!! so im gonna go now ...talk to ya later alligator!

Hey there...two days in a row eah? well thats exciting...today was interesting... the ants go marching one by one? heh that was todays bio song, that was pretty good, and well now im at the library listening to this cd i just found in their  possession which I plan on taking out..by frank of course, yess...so any way right ffter i found this compact disk, i got my new library card! so excited.

i kind of felt bad today for being shitty to someone... im sorry im dumb

so last night i went to the gym right...this morning this kid carlose in my class decides to have a game of punch....yea that sucked ha  but i did listen to good music that period....Sublime/Chilli peppers/ghetto music/ and that song that was stuck in my head...damn it was...ummm damn i cant remember i know i got it stuck in Amandas head in bio. but i for get it now....i love how its so hard to remember this, thats ok o speaking of stuck in my head, today a girl walked by and got a song stuck in my head...idk the name of it or who sings it but its that one that goes LIFE IS A HIGHWAY I WANNA RIDE IT ALL NIGHT LONG...so good i just cant remember who it is...i need to do something about this memory thing i guess...ill probably forget i said that o well im going now...later skater : )

HEY!!! so this is my first up date in months and i think its kindof  making me hyper because not only am i in a good mood... but im UPDATING MY JOURNAL!?!?!?!?! so yea any way today was fun i got abused, made fun of , and i wore a shirt inside out..and i ate a big lunch,  so the party this weekend was  very fun, and the concert before it was amazing, so i have to go now im getting a ride home but ill update tomarrow!!! bye

so this is isabella!?!?! joe ran out of the house really quickly cause his mom was pissed and he forgot to log out of this thing. mwuahaha. so i'ma gonna update for him.

so today was my sister's birthday party so joe came over after church. we tried to do his hair all straight and sexy like. but it didn't work. so i just ended up washing it alllll over again. but then i put this other stuff in it and it came out all super curly and looked cool. but anyway, then we went bowling!! i suck and i told him this. so it was my first time up and i got a strike!?! yeah. i'm awesome. but i still lost.

then we played this shooting game in the arcade because air hockey was out of order.

but anyway, we ate pizza and ice cream cake and came back to my house when JOE WAS SUPPOSED TO GO HOME BUT HE DIDN'T TELL ME THAT SO THEN HIS MOM GOT REALLY MAD. and yeah.

good times good times.

I hate having to pretend im in a good mood...i hate having to try to be ok i shouldn't have to, but what ever its gonna be ok...thats what i tell myself, it seams like thats all ive been saying latley....arg idk what ever, to day was dandy...yesterday was peachy...and tomorrows gonna be better...i took a picture with santa today, in the lunch i went to to get out of bio. that was fun....i miss last years lunch tabe...not that this years is bad i like it...but last years, idk i was more involved, well its getting better. any way. im over stephs...and im listening to finch.... haven't done that in so long...well now its INCUBUS!!!!!!!!! love them....oo and today we watched one of my FAVORITE movies aceventura...yea i think i actually smiled all period...and i havent actualy smiled and meant it in a long time....so thats about it...so ima gonna go...peace.

so...im this when it comes to love?....at least its orange

deathbeondlife is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

....................what about poop...i love that part hahaha...o well i gave out invites today...its gonna be sweet...cant wait till christmass...or the two concerts im going to after words...idk what im going to do in christmass eve i did have something planed but i guess not any more... o well im being rude i must go...(im over andys) later

i dont wanna go...it sucks real bad...but its not like itll matter if i do..and my objections wont count any way...but thats all thats been on my mind latley...along with how much i suck..and how much im being an asshole latley idk what to say right now...bad day...with a better ending...than filled with bad thoughts ...i gues it happens.

"Every Thingle one" hahahah she does though

isabella likes libararyporn

yea today was sweet....hard core volly ball...sweet lunch ...chillen at the library with an awesomr frind...all thamks to a red bull breakfast...thank you red bull you light up my day. hahaha....

any way today was sweet, i never knew that you could actualy sweat in volly ball untill todat...it was hard core...lunnch was sweet too...latley its been not so fun....but today i was loud & obnoxious...ha...and some one at the table wants to see my penis?.....any way. i went to italian and than "went to the bathroom"...well actualy isabellas gym but shhhh... and now im at the library with her, fun times...ok peace out...oo wait POST A COMENT...i never get those....it hurts my feelings some times.
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love is never lost or taken away it just changes form (sighs) 

you cant hold their hand,

 play with their hair,

taste their lips but you can wait...

and your love will just get stronger

when this happens and love changes paths love becomes memmories and emotions are frozen...

 

                     bad habbits have been taking their corse once again and i cant help it...i wish i could...but im becoming such a shity person now."when its getting colder and were getting distant and i just keep thinking that i never ment it to be like this" it seems that slowly im fitting my life into songs and they become me...

 

Jynx me something crazy
Thinking if it's three
then I'm as smooth as the skin
rolls across the small of your back
It's too bad it's not my style
If you need me
I'm out and on the parkway,
patient and waiting for headlights,
dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the
inconsistencys of my moods

It's times like these, where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this
It's times like these, where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this

It's a campaign of distraction
and revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
It's a shame I doubt they even care
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
It's a shame I doubt they even care
Don't let me down

But whatever I have gettin myself into
maybe has been slicing inches from my waist
It's my fist vs. the bottle
And that's how bad could this hurt
or against I won't feel a thing
I tell you all about it
It's just not working out
(...to watch me hit bottom)
not working out

It's a campaign of distraction
and revisionist history, oh

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
It's a shame I doubt they even care
No one is to know about this

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
It's a shame I doubt they even care
No one has to know about this
Don't let me down

This is why we were taught so much better than this
This is why we were taught so much better than this

This is what living like this does

and i hate my self for it all.